It was all good just a week ago

You know for most people they know exactly where their boundaries lie. But not all of us are so fortunate. I have this weird thing about me where I put up with things for an unknown period of time and its fine right up to the second where it no longer is. Then I am just done. Completely over it. This applies to just about every aspect of my life. You know the rap lyric "it was all good just a week ago"? Yeah, that pretty much sums it up. So then what? Well that usually means a new beginning and also, an abrupt end. The ending takes many forms and I am certainly grown enough to admit that some of my endings have been....unkind. That's because I don't feel like I have to explain myself but really, some of those times I probably should have explained at least to some degree. So, only one or two regrets there. But I can recall a conversation with my mom where she said to me that I don't know my limits until I have reached them and that's bad, and in some cases, its dangerous. Temperament is not something you should push to the edge. Neither is patience. It can cloud your judgment and make you see things contrary to how they are and do things that you will regret. You certainly don't want to make a life changing decision once you are already at the edge of the cliff. I am trying something a little different today. I can actually see one of my boundaries off in the distance. Some days it picks up speed and is closer than it appeared to be the day before. Maybe its just getting older and vision being a little clearer and yet failing at the same time. I have a birthday coming up soon. I have a great appreciation for things getting so much easier as I get older. Primarily because of the idiotic experiences of my youth. Not everything is easy because I certainly could live without the daily back aches. And why do I have to wake up with a back ache everyday? I mean is this just life now? I digress.